Unconditionality is Bull Shit !!!!

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Few things in one's life happen for a very strong reason. The reason and the lesson out of such a happening are so important that the impact - good or bad seems irrelavant.

I have had my own fair share of success and good fortune in all walks of life. But on the personal front whenI look back and see what was right and what went wrong, I am atleast happy for i was seldom at the receiving end for most of my wrongs. But is it something to be proud of ? Is it so consoling that I continue with my old ways? and what is it that so suddenly gave my shameless ways of life such a strong wake up call ? It is these times when confusion takes over common sense.

One fine morning you wake up and realise suddenly for a change that you are at the receiving end of a similar shit you have been doing to others. You experience pain, but again your pain seems so insignificant comapred to the cummulative pain you have caused. It is only then that you realise how lucky you have been to have got all the love and attention of your close ones despite what you have been giving them in return. But, also it is only then that you now realise that tommorrow might actually not be as lucky for you as yesterday.

Somebody very rightly told me once that I can never be unhappy. Well how very true !! Yes ofcourse. I always lived in the present. Always made new friends around and have been succesful in remaining the centre of attention. So, when it all sounds so fine what went wrong ? Oh yes, in this process of living in the present I now realise that I have almost lost all my past. It is now when I think of the future does it strike me that a past if the first prerequisite for a future cause "Nothing Is Unconditional".

Now I see how much loving somebody is important before expecting to be loved. How giving attention is important before expecting some and much more importantly how "Not to give attention and love" is important when there is lack of it from the other side. Its ironical that I had to realise this after already losing so much but as I said again "Few things happen for a very strong reason" Appreciate them !!!!